The confessions of a libertine

Old school porn vs modern porn

2009-09-02T02:49:00.000-07:00

I enjoy Porn. It arouses me and at it's best it inspires me. But I do prefer old porn movies over modern porn.

Since the 90's video equipment got affordable and anyone that wanted to make porn could. The problem is that everybody wanted to, and they wanted to make as much money as possible. One way to make more money is to cut costs in production. So goodbye to manuscripts and plots, goodbye to expensive locations and goodbye camera crew. Why spend money on that stuff when you can record yourself at home with your mobile and some horny friends.

That new stuff still gives me a hard on. I think regardless of quality naked people engaged in sexual activities will always do that for me. But it does'nt do anything with my mind. It does'nt really turn me on.

Some of the classical porn movies from the 70s and the 80s works so much better for me, and I think I know why. First of all they look so much better, often recorded with expensive equipment on real film. They have characters and plots. For me it's exiting to have some sort of build up to the actual sex scene. It is interesting to know how and why the characters ends up having sex with each other. And you can have all this ambiance and underlaying feelings and motives. It's not just genitalia rubbing against genitalia.

Some of my favorites

Behind the green door
Insatiable
The devil in Miss Jones
Fäbodjäntan (Swedish)
Taboo I-IV

Countdown to the weekend

2009-08-31T01:03:00.000-07:00

Four long days until I pick her up at the station. Four more days until I can look at her, touch her and hold her in my arms.

I picture her standing infront of me. I am sitting on the bed, looking at this gorgeous creature. I tell her to slowly undress for me. She silently obeys, letting garment after garment fall to the floor.

She blushes as she stands there naked before me. Naked and beatiful. I ask her to slowly turn around, a slow and silent pirouette. I demand her to approach and lay down across my knee. How I long to spank those delicious buttocks. This will be one of hopefully many firsts for us.

Falling in vanilla

2009-08-28T23:19:00.000-07:00

I have recently started to date a wonderful woman. She's smart, sexy, beautiful and submissive. Feels like I'm about to fall deeply in love with her, and I belive the feeling is mutual. At the same time it feels like I'm about to fall in a deep, slippery barrel of vanilla.

Not that I mind some old fashioned vanilla sex once in a while. I need that sort of cozy, gentle sex every now and then. And of course you get extra cuddly, cute and sweet when you are about to fall in love.

For me the problem is that I feel that with a BDSM-relationship you also set the parameters regarding the roles in the beginning. Aside from falling in love with each other as persons we are also attracted to each other from our respective position as dom and sub. And as a dominant I find that it can be a little bit hazardous to get too gentle, cuddly and sweet.

So how can one find the balance in this situation? How can one still be emerged in the wonderful world of falling in love and still remain in the mindframe as a dominant partner? I personally struggle with this, but just being aware of this from earlier relationships helps. Another thing that I belive helps is trying to be in surroundings with other people active in the BDSM-community. I am very pleased that for our next rendezvous we have decided to visit a fetish-party together. The near future looks indeed very exiting.

Away

2009-08-25T23:40:00.000-07:00

Will be away for a couple of days visiting some friends.

Nyotaimori

2009-08-25T12:13:00.001-07:00

I love both sushi and naked women, so the idea of eating sushi of the body of a naked woman seems like a really wonderful thing. This idea comes from Japan and is called Nyotaimori. It translates into something like "female body presentation". The male equvivalent is called Nantaimori.

Unfortunatly I will probably have to go abroad to have the opportunity to experience this at an restaurant. The Swedish health regulations and the views on female exploatation here would not allow for such a practice.

I also like the idea of doing this more privatly at home. What a treat it would be to invite some friends and serve them sushi from my naked girlfriends body.

I am not a sadist... am I?

2009-08-25T02:50:00.000-07:00

The term Sadist really gives me a headache. I don't know if I am a sadist or not.

Most definitions of sadism basically agrees on something like "the deriving of sexual gratification or the tendency to derive sexual gratification from inflicting pain or emotional abuse on others."

Well, the inflicting pain part is not that complicated at first glance. I enjoy giving my girl a spanking, whipping or decorating her breasts with clothes pins. But then comes the paradox with a consenting masochistic partner. The truth is that I would not enjoy inflicting pain to someone that does'nt receive some pleasure out of it. But then I am really distributing pleasure rather then inflicting pain. Am I still concidered a Sadist?

The same goes for the abuse. I can't abuse someone beyond their consent if I am to feel good about it. If you really take offence of being called a whore I will refrain from using that term. How can you reach a point where you actually gives abuse but still within the boundrys of consent.

I have not gotten it all worked out yet as you can see. But it's a pleasurable labour getting there. And as long as I enjoy the practise maybee one does not have to worry too much about the terminology.

How to suck

2009-08-24T08:24:00.000-07:00

I really love a good blowjob. But every blowjob is not a good blowjob. It's not just taking the cock inside the mouth and make the guy come.

Here are some pointers that makes all the diffrence.

1. Love what your doing.
Nothing is as sexy as a girl that seems to really love taking the cock in her mouth.

2. Lots of saliva
Saliva is a really good lubricant. Make sure the cock is really wet while it slides in and out of your mouth. Don't worry if it dribbles and runs down your cheek; it's just sexy. If you got the attitude you can even spit on it.

3. Don't forget the balls
It's not only the the head and shaft that wants attention. I find it very arousing to have my balls sucked. I also immensely enjoy getting the Perineum area licked; the area between cock and anus.

Bonuses

4. Deepthroat
If you have this ability use it. Few things are as cool as seeing your whole cock disappear down a womans throat. Just open wide and let the guy fuck your throat.

5. Cum in face or swallow
Yes, I know it's a porn-cliché but it looks really good. And for some reason I feel especially confirmed beeing allowed to blast my load in her face or mouth.

Other then that, just mind the teeth and start to suck.

What makes you what you are?

2009-08-24T04:51:00.000-07:00

I don't belive in divine intervention or any other alien force controlling us. I belive we are the products of our enviroment and our experiences. To some small degree we might also be under the influence of our own individual DNA-cocktail.

I do belive that there are significant events in life that defines and shapes us. I belive my first sexual experience with Mowgli was such an event.

Strangly it did'nt focus my sexual orientation towards guys. As soon as puberty set in I became very obsessed with girls. I can still feel sexually attracted towards some guys (especially towards younger, skinny boys with tanned skin), but I always fall in love with girls.

But one thing I do belive started from playing with Mowglis Big Jim-dolls is my connection with agression and sex.

Maybee this was that one thing that started to orientate me towards the world of sado-masochism and BDSM.

But that part of my sexuality was mainly imagination and fantasies for alot of years. My instincts was colliding with my upbringing since I was thought that all people are equal, and never to impose my will against the wishes of another.

Much later in life was I to learn that you could combine those beliefs and still have the pleasure of controlling and dominating another person sexually.

It started with a boy

2009-08-24T03:05:00.000-07:00

Kind of strange, but everytime I think of him I get the picture of Mowgli in my head.

Being 11 or 12 years old seems like a really long time ago. The end of innocence.

It started when we where playing with his Big Jim dolls. It was always some jungle adventure where the heroes had to fight wild animals and cruel villains. The fights where fierce in our imaginary jungle, where men with oversized muscles used to beat on each other.

But something suddenly changed in these fights. From nowhere a new behaviour emerged when the toys would stop fighting and start kissing instead. Bodys where bent into new and exiting positions that allowed for strangly arousing humping. Big Jim was all of a sudden getting blowjobs instead of uppercuts and lefthooks from his adversaries.

Something new and exiting had stated to fill our mind. I can't remeber from where this new knowledge came, but it was soon consuming us.

We left the dolls on the floor and focused on each other. Two young boys that had'nt even reached puberty yet. He was one year younger then I and had a very slender and tanned body. I remember thinking of him as beautiful. I was also a skinny lad then, but a little bit taller and bigger then him.

We started to show each other our tiny boy-cocks. Marvelled when we got erections and they grew infront of our eyes. Soon we started to touch each other and we took turns putting it inside our mouths, sucking and licking. I even got to put mine up his ass, but I never returned that favor.

Sadly during the end of that summer we started to feel guilty about our naked adventures. We where getting more and more afraid that someone would caught us in the act or that it somehow would show just by looking at us.

When school started we went to seperate shools and our lifes got more and more separeted over time.

But something new had started that summer... something exiting and wonderful.